I won't give up

Day 24: I feel like I am writing as if I am dying and these are my memoirs. 3 weeks of the same diet. Not impressed really with the overall detox presentation. I feel like I'm eating all these foods, and not eating others, with no real idea why, other than it's good for me. Not sure why I can't have tomoatoes, or potatoes, or red meat. I did get a recipe for apple crisp, just didn't have enough apples in the house to make it cuz I was eating them all!

Today was really rough. I definately woke up on the wrong side of the bed today, and so did my son. We were pushing each other's buttons. And so I felt something had to give. I feel like I try to accomplish too much. Work, house, kid, husband, and detox can take a toll on someone's emotions and sanity. I felt like giving up the detox. So for a small piece of motivation, once again I stepped on the scale. Lost 1 more pound. Yay.

So I've decided to stick it through. After all I only have 4 more days to go. I can't quit when I've come so close to the end. And as I write this, the scent of pachos drifts from the meeting room at work, calling my name, begging, and I am saying "F OFF" and eating my chicken and rice with brocoli. Yum.

Think thin!
Veronica

The power of a pound

Well today is day 20, I think. I'm not too good at this keeping track thing.

After my last blog of doubts, a friend of mine suggested I step on the scale for a little motivation.

All I'm going to say is that I've lost 8 pounds!

(Thanks Carrie!)

Think thin,
Veronica

Losing My Motivation

What's today? Day 17? I think.

I am sooo tired of eating the same stuff! I probably won't buy salmon again for a long time after this. And although I find my pants are loosening, I also find myself cheating a little more here and there. I didn't want to eat my dinner today. But I did. Sigh.

On a lighter note, I've discovered my love of salsa. I know it's not "allowed" but really? There are next to no calories in it, plus its loaded with veggies. Put that on a chicken breast and it tastes just like a quesadilla.

I would kill for a bowl of cereal. I even had a dream about a bagel!!! I continue to torture myself by making dinners for my husband and son. Creating a sub tests me.

Only 11 more days..........

Think thin!
Veronica

Where the Wild Things Are

Day 15

I wasn't feeling well today. I'm not sure if it's something thats going around, or if it has to do with taking omega 3 for the first time. I have also been getting headaches at the same time of the day for the last few days. As a result, I have had little appetite.

My success of the day- I went to a movie and for only the second time in my life that I can remember, didn't buy anything from the concession! Usually I get a drink AND popcorn.

That's all folks!

Think thin!
Veronica

A Lesson in Accountability

How can someone lose weight without being held accountable? I'm hoping that those of you who are reading this are willing to keep me in check and live up to my word.

This week seemed to fly by. Not really sure why. But it made my food choices really trying. Especially when I am feeding two other ppl and working 4 shifts a week. I must admit, I had a pop, as well as a chocolate bar and an iced cappucino. (Gasp!) Yes, I cheated more than I had wished this week, but in all, I am still proud of myself.

Especially since I had to get my husband to put a new hole in my belt! Yay! Still haven't weighed myself though. If I had to guess, I have dropped one dress size. And on the days when I cheat, I make SURE that those are the ones when I go to the gym.

Much better experience with goat cheese. (Thank you Andrea for your advice) Some good goat feta to go with my spinach as well as some chevre to melt on top of my chicken. Mmmmmm.

My menu for this week, however, is the exact same. Frustrated at first, I realized there still was a few items on the list that I have not yet tried. So perhaps I can mix things up a bit.

If anyone has any ideas/recipes they would like to contribute, they would be most greatly appreciated. See previous blogs for my ingredients list.

Think thin!
Veronica

The forbidden fruit

This week I get to eat fruit! I never thought I would be so happy to swallow an apple.

A few new ingredients this week:
-Apples
-Pears
-Strawberries
-Spinach
-Almonds
-Hemp hearts
-Avocado
-Romaine
-Goat cheese
-Sunflower seeds (unsalted of course)

I have never previously eaten goat cheese. I thought "how bad could it really be?" I've eaten some weird cheeses before. Nuh uh. Not this stuff. Perhaps it was the type of goat cheese I bought, brie. I have never had brie before. Barf, gag, and into the garbage it went.

So my belt is slowly getting too big. I will soon have to ask my husband to punch a new hole in it! Still haven't weighed myself though. I will definately wait til the end for that. If I lose 10lbs I'll be extatic.

Yesterday was a bad day for cheating. Home made chicken noodle soup, grandma style. And the one last slice of thanksgiving desert which included cream cheese, cool whip, chocolate pudding, almonds and bits of crispy crunch chocolate bar. Can you say yum? I can. I did.

But now my parents have gone back home, and I've vowed to be ever faithful for the remainder of the month. Your body is a temple. You only get one.

Think thin!
Veronica

Gobble, gobble, gobble.

And that's what I did. Yes turkey is on my "allowed" list, but on this Thanksgiving day, I sure was thankful. Thankful for stuffing and gravy, for mashed potatoes and of course, desert! Heck I made it all, I had to make sure it was safe for everyone else to eat........right?

Day 6- The week has been going surprisingly well. I feel great and have been doing really good on following the diet. Had a few little cheats (besides today) like a spinach salad and some soy sauce. However I am really looking forward to getting my new diet plan tomorrow for this week. I heard a rumor that there will be fruit!

I went to the gym this morning, and when I came home, my jeans were too big! But my old jeans were still a bit snug. I haven't weighed myself yet. I'm scared that if I weigh myself too soon, I will slack off and all of this will be a waste. I'm hoping I can wait until the very end.

A few thoughts on this week:

-My previous food choices were all based on either convenience or taste and not nutritional value

-Some people live to eat, and other eat to live. I think right now I'm somewhere in the middle.

It's a good thing I went to the gym today cuz otherwise those too big jeans may have been the too small jeans.

Think thin!

Veronica

Not for the weak at heart

Day 2

Well in all, today went much better. I created a delicious lunch by pan searing the salmon with spices. Now that, I could eat often. It didn't feel like a diet at all.

Throughout the day I found myself forgetting what I was doing, and would reach for that grape or a bite of cheese and have to remind myself not to.

I've somewhat eliminated the asparagus since I have to eat it raw, and that's one veggie I can't tolerate raw.

I'm getting used to the taste of quinoa. I'm sure it would taste great in an actual recipe, but on its own or just with spices, takes some getting used to.

My gut has been making a lot of growling noises, not because I am hungry though. I think it is trying to tell me something. I haven't yet determined whether that is "thank you" or "you just wait and see what I have in store for you."

One thing for sure is that a detox is not for the light at heart. I'm learning a lot about willpower. (Especially when chips and chocolate bars are staring at me during my 8 hour shift at work.) I know this first week will be the toughest and if I can make it through, the worst will be over. I pray that the reward will be worth the effort in the end.

If you always do what you have always done, you will always get what you always have.

Think thin!
Veronica

Take away my tastebuds, please!

So it's nearing the end of day one of the detox. For the week, my diet will consist of:

-Chicken
-Turkey
-Halibut or Salmon
-Peppers
-Carrots
-Broccoli
-Asparagus
-Snap Peas
-Quinoa (weird barley like stuff)
-Brown Rice

I must eat 4 meals a day. However, I am constantly full and will forgo my last meal today. It would be a waste. If I get hungry, I'll eat it.

No caffeine, no alcohol, no sugar, no dairy, no fruit, no red meat. Some of these may change in the next few weeks.

I have to drink plenty of fluids including green tea and hot water with lemon. (mmm?)

A few thoughts on this week's diet:

-God bless my George Foreman grill that I bought at a yard sale for $15
-Spices are my friend
-I will be going to the bathroom a lot
-I need more tupperware containers
-Don't forget to feed my husband too

So tomorrow I will be heading to the grocery store to buy more CHICKEN. Apparently 6 packs is not enough for one person. Sigh.

Think thin!
Veronica

The Beginning of the End

Well, here we are. It's Oct. 4th and I find myself pigging out on a chicken burger with "pachos". (The local fry in honeycomb form with cheese and special dipping sauce.) Normally, I would have just eaten the chili that I brought with me to work, but being that I start a detox on Tuesday, my mentality when ordering this food, was something along the lines of "better get all the crap food you can now before you start detox."

Which brings me to the reason for this blog. I have never done a blog before. I have also never done a "detox" before. I wanted to document my journey through the 5 week process. The highs and the lows. (And hopefuly not the naughty snacks along the way.) If all goes well, it will turn into a 12 month regime, which will ultimately lead me to my weight loss goal of 35 pounds.

For anyone who knows me, you know that I had a baby just over a year ago. Prior to getting pregnant, I began exercising at home, and documenting everything I ate, resulting in a weight loss of 10 pounds. During my pregnancy, I gained 50 pounds, then delivered a 10 pound baby. (Ouch!) I still have 15 pounds leftover from the pregnancy putting my total weight at 190 pounds.

I am tired of being fat. So I got myself a gym membership which is where I will be going once a week for the detox meetings and support. (As well as working out of course.)

So for anyone reading this, feel free to offer support or advice. I need to be held accountable for my actions.

(Pictures to follow)

Think thin!
Veronica